Empower U - Adventure Journal Entry #6

Good Afternoon Team 297- LIVE IT!

Let me see where I left off... Oh yes, I was again in battle with two nasty, ugly, vile creatures of my own making, "fear of failure" and his ugly brother "fear of rejection."

The beauty of Adventure is that only during the ride back and forth from the ranch, at meals, and right before I slept was there anytime to reflect or self-indulge in a pity party. After the process where I lost my FOCUS and caused the TEAM to fail once again, it was off to another process.

This process, like all the rest required our TEAM to work together using the Four Cs of Leadership. This one although not as physically taxing was emotionally and psychologically challenging. Mainly because of the crap that was running around in my head. I got to work with Georgine upclose in this process which made things a little better for me. What I have realized just now as I write, is that this process showed me the value of living in the NOW MOMENT! If I had stayed in the past and kept revolving my failure and not learned from it, I surely would have caused my TEAM to fail the process I was now involved in.

We hear it a lot to "pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and hit it again." Very wise counsel indeed. But if I do that and still I think about what a failure I was instead of staying in the NOW MOMENT, which is where I am able to affect change, I will no doubtedly end up on my butt again.

So this time, maybe not a major blow to the beasts, but an important "change in approach" took place. Instead of the beasts being a large as mountains, imposing and daunting; they now became little puppets. Puppets that I wield! Can you grasp what I am saying? I make the choice on how this affects me! I decide how "life's lessons" as Mindy Colvin has shared before, will manifest in my life. If I am looking for a horror flick, then big snarling, drooling monsters is what I get. Instead, if I am looking for a comedy, then cute little smurfs are dancing around.

What an epiphany this is! Is it a mountain or a mole hill? I guess it depends on my perspective. Am I laying face down in the dirt because it has kicked me down? Or am I up on my feet and ready to either hit it again or change my approach and use it as a stepping stone to becoming my dreams?

This point is really when I, unconsciously I will admit, turned the corner in my battle with these demons.

The next processes I will speak of next time. They were at once challenging as I took an "active follower" role and gained a valuable insight into who Michael Paulus really is.

Until next time...